I might be a weird fact but I’ve never actually thought of doing a huge amount of work in the library here which is especially strange as I live on campus and could basically do so every day. On the other hand however, I don’t need to sit in the surprisingly chilly library surrounded by creepy-looking people trying to focus when I can do the exact same thing in my room where it is as cold but not as crowded. Tonight, I felt like being here, like freezing between books on the history of Christianity. I’m not gonna say that in the almost three hours I’ve been sitting here now I managed to finish everything that I need to but I got some good work done and if nothing goes wrong (which it most likely always does) I should get on pretty quickly with my workload, especially if I keep up the pace. I have three more papers to write, one I’m through halfway now, one of the others should be on my mind the entirety of next week, for the third I will have to get an appointment on Monday and see how it goes from there. I’m virtually forced to just write stuff down, maybe look over it again and hand it up right away so that I can go on with the next paper, while I still have continuous assessments to do like presentations, commentaries and journal entries….what with the nervous breakdowns I have nearly every day by now. However, I’m planning on making lemonade out of the lemons life hands me and indulge into work as much as possible so that I can get it over with the work and enjoy some of the last days of Irish craic this trip will hopefully provide me with. By now, I’m pretty sad about the whole situation but I’m trying hard to look on the bright side of it all, that after everything is said and done, I will probably be able to look at life differently and, so the plan, take the measures necessary for me to finally arrive at a state of being content with what I’m given, with what I’m doing, with where I’m going. The guy on the one tour through Wicklow said that in Ireland you have to lower your standards if you want to be happy, maybe what you actually have to do is shift your focus in order to understand the importance of certain things….he also said that if you want to see rainbows you have to learn to live with the rain, which of course was meant literally as in Ireland it rains virtually every day (even if people deny it) but if you wanna read it metaphorically I think it makes as much sense, if not more.
